Nothing much
Nothing less
Just a simple
I Love You.

The Call

To all my friends and especially Kenny
Though he already knew this song
Never the less, this is song expresses every single to those i treasure and care the most.
To love and never be forgotten

Holding On To You

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

.

Stupid.

Love

Just that simple love
Brought us so far
Always along with us
You and I

Faith

we will be able to pull through this
If we are meant to be together










We have to
I have to...

That Road

Along these many paths we took
Along with those memories
Will they one day
Be forgotten
Will that nightmare blind me
Or bring me to the very truth
Fate
Brought us together
Will it break us apart
Should I take a step forward
Or brave myself into that assumption
Walking on this very road
What is next
What will come
I hear many cries in me
What are they
Who are they
Or are they just
...Me
That very day when I chose that path
Did I regret it a little
That sorrow in me
Has once again
Taken me over
What could be right
What should be true
I'd rather live
On a lonely shell
That speaks
Of no truth
Of no lie
Of dismiss
Of no tie
But just
That very fact
I am alone

To The Anonymous

What is black and white
What was right and wrong
Why was I
Why should I
Why do I
When those unnecessary invades
When those shakes break out
Where should I go
Where should I hide
I am but
Too tired to confront
Too tired to resolve
Just let me breakaway from these
For I will return you your freedom
This
All these
Never I asked for
Should leave me alone

A Moment Like This

The love we share
Standing naked in front of us
In a lifetime to come
People wait
I always say
I have you
What is there to yearn
Every event
Every incident
Prove us
Our love is strong
That our love is undeniable
Looking at the beautiful you
Always remember
I love you
When I look at you
When I whisper to you
When this love have been decided
Since the day of births
Come to me
Let me embrace you
Because you have protected me
And because you are always here for me
I will become
Your once in a lifetime
And in eternity to come

Him

"Like a plant
We all need some space
The space to grow
The space to flower
The space to fruit
Though I know plants grow better
When they are together
You can't put them so close to each other
They are beautiful as themselves
Put them together and they look even better as a pair
But each still needs its space
Because they are still themselves
Lovely, beautiful plants
I want you to grow
I want you to flower
I want you to fruit
Because
You're my lovely, beautiful Raymond."


From him
The true love I ever found

Life In Me

I found hope
I found faith
Found truelove
You made it easy
You made it free
Its a secret
One day's heaven
Sometimes hell
Sometimes even angels fall
But that is the way it's suppose to be
For you found hope
You found faith
I made it easy
I made it free
Found truelove
You and I

Moody, hate it

The sky
The rain
The street
I see people walking along
Passing by me
Many of them
But none that I recognise
Strangers I see
Standing alone on the street
Rain fell onto me
The light seemed far away
The least visible
Drops I hear
Every tattering bit
No sun
No moon
Was it me whom lurched myself
Or the heart that left me lurched

Worn Out

I'm tired.

Fear

When you first saw me
I was cold and pricked
But you always looked at me
The love you gave to me
Troubled as I am
I am scared
I am afraid
That you will leave me
Some day
One day
I cried
I cry
I feel alone
I feel helpless
How can I let you know
I am more than the smile and laughter you see each day
Everyday I see you
I treasure them
Though my heart cries a few
I want to be happy around you
At time
I would think inside me
Maybe to see you less
May I feel more at ease
No it doesn't feel any better
Not seeing you
Shall I be the one for you
I am hereby
Overwhelmed by fear

Bond

Your love
Impacted so much on me
Your deeds
Charged me with all
Never let me go
You promised
My heart teared
This drop I gave
Promise I made upon
Never will I desert you
For I fall myself
Into your gentle arms
Telling me
How you thank God for me
I look into you
And you say to me
Beautiful are my eyes
Here I am
Standing to you
Giving you
The brightest smile
The loudest cry
The laughable
The untouchable
Nothing much
Nothing less
Just the simple
Just the genuine me

Smiling to you
Gives me happiness
Whining to you
Gives me security
Laughing to you
Gives me warmth
Crying to you
Gives me comfort
You are
For who you are
For whom I love
For who we are
For we are one

My Surprise

At times people believe
Mystical happens alongside them
Showing them the everything they thought were myths
So much so what they expect
I have a better
I have Kenny by my doorstep
Surprise he got to me
Loved

The Wait

When I saw the skies are blue
The ocean green
The white winged flew above
I hear the wind
They say to me
Its okay, be strong
I see the clouds
They showed me my memories
I feel the Sun
He gave me warmth
I am just right here
With all I have
Waiting for your return
Back from where you took off
I never left
Just right here
At this very same place we knew each other
The love you gave me
The one you loved so much
Your beloved
My love
Us

It Is You

The Falls

I get so mesmerized when he smirks! =D

My Morning Is His....

I dreamt of you
And we kissed.

My Darling

He sent me this afternoon, isn't he cute? (=

For Good

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness for what you blame me for...
Well I guess there is blame to share...
And none of it seems to matter anymore
Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun (like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood)
Like a ship blown off it's mooring by a wind off the sea (like a seed dropped by a skybird in the wood)
Who's to say if I've been changed for the better?

Because I knew you,
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good

Miss You

Missing you
Much as the sky's degree
Loves.

Just us

My Journal

Feelings as it started
When the dark clouds moved away
I saw the tree open
The light shone through
Stars fall in the bright sky
Sun shining through the peaceful night
Life of the openness
We promised us
Like you promised me
As our vows held upon thee
The pale clouds
The flying doves
The everyday's you
The always me
The very us

The Thing We Have

Just my knight
Just his beloved
Always his
Always mine

Time

I need the time
I need to know if we are really suitable for each other
I don't want to waste your time
I don't want to use up mine
I don't want to step into something where it might be just an act of a repulse
I don't want you to step into something that might land you into deep blackhole
I don't want to be pressurized by anything
I don't need you to be pressurized
I just need to know
I need to be myself

Bio

My name is Raymond
I am a mix blood
I am a christian
I am 19 this year
I teach music
I major viola
I am currently in the army
I am open about myself being gay
I love caucasians
I want to live in Scotland
I want to die in God's hands
Last but not least
I love Kenny

My Comfort

Spent my time waiting
Thought nothing can come by
Despaired as it was
This man came by
Pulled me out this dark hole
Protected me from the vultures
Embraced with his arms
I saw his face
He was real
I was in the arms of an angel
This angel
Held onto
Loved into
This man
He is my angel

My love for him

Thousands of years
Human lived through their own
A year passed
How did we define
In his land
Trees whisper
Wind talk
That thousands of years have passed us
From the great within he left us
The rebirthed phoenix
The great cat
Sons of Adam
Daughters of Eve
Bestowed with benevolence
Promised us with his faith
We no longer belonged to us
As we are for one
For the great clear sky of heaven's north gate
Angels dancing with the wind
Mermaids flowing with the fishes
Fauns humming the lullaby
All of them
Back onto this mortal land once again
Light came back on us
Clouds
Sun
Ocean
The deep magic
With his son's words
Here we are
Onto this garden was once forbidden
Now
It is forgiven
The love with all embrace
Come back to me
My love ones
Shall I bethroned you
With the greatest glory
The fair
The just
The gentle
The valiant
Most of all
The purity
With these all
I shall have you
All of you back to my arms
Once again
The verdict has been written
Under his witness
Within his heart
For we are all one
One and for all we shall be


::Dedication of Easter::

Legend

In a land of no return
Time was not accepted within
Clouds were beneath step of paths
There once lived a queen
Windefelle
Beautiful as the angel's hymn
Elegant as the water flow
Lived by her gracefulness
The creatures of God's bestow
Angels of north heaven
There I was
In this land where Virgo brought me to
Looking upon the great warmth
I saw Windefelle
Her benevolence got me into peace
Here she came to me
Giving me three promises
"Dimmest and youngest star as he could be, will he be your most faithful guardian that protects you from absolute darkness"
"Heart of fire, though faint yet enough to keep you warm and be loved"
Last but not least
"The 'Meramenoid's Lullaby' I give to you shall protect you from all darklings from within and the faith we both remembered with the promise upon God's witness thousand years ago"
The three promises
Never shall I be disturbed

Lost Soul

It seemed so bright
Yet a little undone
It seemed so right
Yet a little too well perfected
The way it was done
Thou shall not thee
Which route did you show me
Shall I follow upon to thee
Looked upon
I took a step back
You questioned
I wish I knew
You wished I knew
Thought to be stolen
Yet it seemed returned
Thought to be unsatisfied
Yet given upon great satisfactory
Thought to be lost
It is still lost...

Lifespend

Indulgence
Isolation
Words of many
But lost of every
To whom it may concern
To whom it will be
To whom...

Forgiven

Couldn't save you from the start
Love you so it hurts my soul
Can you forgive me for trying again
Your silence makes me hold my breath
Oh, time has passed you by

For so long I've tried to shield you from the world
You couldn't face the freedom on your own
Here I am left in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

I watched the clouds drifting away
Still the sun can't warm my face
I know it was destined to go wrong
You were looking for the great escape
To chase your demons away

For so long I've tried to shield you from the world
You couldn't face the freedom on your own
And here I am left in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

I've been so lost since you've gone
Why not me before you
Why did fate deceive me
Everything turned out so wrong
Why did you leave me in silence

You gave up the fight
You left me behind
All that's done's forgiven
You'll always be mine
I know deep inside
All that's done's forgiven

:Within Temptation

Comfort

Look into the night sky
What do you see?
I see stars
Glowing dimly
I flew up into the sky
Looking for the brighter regions
Where stars shine brighter than anywhere seen on solid earth
The higher I flew
More stars I see
Like a blanket full of holes
Covering the white sky
I felt the resonance of earth’s heartbeat
I heard the voice from the great beyond
And I saw no one
But only myself
Up in the sky
Standing all by myself
The stars no longer shine
The resonance…
The voice…
Everything…
Gone.


Looking up upon
I ask God
When will you guide me back to your kingdom?
When will you bring me back into your arms?
I seek nothing now
But to stay comfort in your hands…

Emotions- hidden within

Snow fell upon me
I knew you wouldn’t come back to me
Wind talked to me
She told me not to give up
I looked at the sky and said
I’m scared


To see of what I see not
To seek for what I seek not
To love for whom I love so
To wait upon whom he will never come back
Faith
Believe
Distraction
Destruction
Saint
Devil
Alone am I
Take me into the dark
Take
Took
Taken…

Seek

What are we? Where are you? Who am I?
Why were we? Where were you? Who was I?
Where am I? Who are you? … What am I?

I see the sky in bloom.
I see the clouds imitating.
I feel the sunlight entering me.
I feel the moonlight embracing me.
I hear the wind playing mischievously.
I hear the air whispering to me.
But I don’t see you…
But I don’t feel you…
But I don’t hear you…

Walking alone in the desert red snow
I see no one
Stepping onto the earthly ground
Filling the air with noises
While the silence is slowly killing me
Who am I seeking?
Who am I looking for?
Who should I seek?
Who should I look for?
Where will I start?
Where will you be?

Time

Your face
I kept it inside my eyes
Your voice
I kept inside my ears
Your smell
I kept it under my nose
Your loved
I kept it inside me
One day if I die
I bring along your everything
I will bring it to heaven
And tell God
He is the man I love
The only I had and will only be him
Now and forever…