Embraced

Let your arms enfold me

Through the dark of the night

Never part me

Till we see the light

Can you feel

The feeling embraced around you

My feelings embraced around you

Never leave me alone

I want to have you by my side when we are at the 'light'

Who am i lying to..

Who am i decieving..

Who...

Why is pace your always so fast...

So fast that i could not catch up...

I want to catch up..

I really want to..

But you never thought of me..

I'm just decieving myself

A big thank to you

I'm feeling much, much better now..

The things you told me...

You enlightened me alot...

I put my up most respect to you...

So far, you are the only one that made me realise alot of things..

You are really like a brother to me...

And i treat you like my own brother...

A big thank you to you...

Without you, maybe i would still be in no way...

I promise you i won't waste my time off starting from next year...

I will strive real hard...

Thank you..

Brother..

Fated to be

Guess i'm lost again..

I get depress easily..maybe?

Sometimes..

I tell people certain things or problems about me...

Doesn't mean that i am in need for help..

I just wanna voice out myself...

I just need someone to listen...

I don't need advices 'cause eventually i will still follow myself..

I know some of them are really trying to help me..

But i just can't..

Maybe what i really want to see is that there will be this person...

He/she will stand on my side and tel me to go for it...

Don't give the person i loved so deeply up so easily...

No matter how long i have to wait, i will..

Till now, there isn't anyone that told me something like this...

What i only get is...

Give that person up..

That person is not worth for me to do so much...

I just don't understand...

How do you know that person doesn't worth that much to me...

Sigh...

I am just fated to be like this..

In this pathetic state i'm in...

I hope you know who i'm referring to..

Or maybe you don't know i truly loves you...

Well...

I guessed you already knew it long ago...

I'm just a piece of crap...

Very sorry...

Today was CRAP for me...i had to play a composition of Dedric's piece for his exams. And i flopped one or mayb two of the most obvious parts!...WTF..maybe i get distracted to easily..or i juz suc..WTF WTF WTF...haiz...not really bothered by how his classmates but the EXAMNIER!...[i'm speechless]..I'm sorry)'=..but its kinda funny when Dedric introduced me in front of his classmates and examiner(s)...haiz...but there are very nice compositions i heard from other students...thats all...i need time to wake my idea up!

Darkness

Why...

Why did i chose to know you..

Why did i decided it to be you...

Why did i devote so much to you..

Why did you stepped to my life so easily..

Why did i opened my door to you so easily...

Just why...

Everything around me now is confusing...

I can't think properly...

I have thought of many possibilities...

But the impact is just too great for me..

I need you..

I doubt you ever realised it...

Were you ever touched by me...

You are one that truly devoted too much...

Too much till i can't do anything....

You treated me in such cold attitude..

I felt being abandoned...

Thrown into darkness once agan...

What can i do...

What will i wish for...

To make you realise...

I love you...

Sky

Sky moved...

Clouds stilled...

Red over the Dark...

Dark surrounded by the Red...

Rain drops...

I am moved...

Distant PromiseII

Seeing you makes me feel relief...

Seeing you makes me feel relaxed...

Memories inside you...

Made me feel distance from you...

But i like being with you...

I like going out with you...

I like walking beside with you...

I like to spend my every single second with you...

I might not understand your pain that your memories brought you...

But i will be here to go through with you...

Its a distant promise i made...

And never will i break this promise...

Seasons come and go...

Thou shall not change its love for thee...

what the hell

You are stupid
Why don't you understand
Don't you get it
You made me kinda pissed
Cause you mean to me
I mean it
I don't know what to say
I just wanna voice out
Stop feigning ingorance already
I can't take it
Anymore

Where am i leading to?

Well...
How am i gonna start...
Though everything seems going fine now...
But i'm still feeling very troubled...
Maybe i am not confident for myself....
I'm very afraid of losing another person again....
I dare not do anything...
Do anything to improve our situation to a better stage...
I'm afraid i might worsen the situation...
I do not know what can i do...
I do not know what am i supposed to do...
Maybe im always lost...
Always...
What am i...
I don't know...
Hiding myself...
Again and again...
Is this...
A kinda life i am suppose to lead...
I guess so...
The sky was beautiful...
The sea was nice...
THe sea waves were peaceful...
But...
This were in the past...
Past...