Phoebia

Yay..today, or rather yesterday[due to the time] is one of my happiest day in my life..

I went out with my primary school friends..Melissa, all time favourite!!! Yan Min, good friend always...Evelyn, quiet as ever....Pamela, always hitting me:S...Yong Quan, as steady as ever...Clifton, still taller than me:(....
We went seoul garden to eat!!...i ate alot...Melissa claiming that she ate alot and is full end up eating lotsa stuff with me...We talked alot..About things in the present and during pri school life..
Yong Quan is still as deaf as ever...he can't seem to realise that we are calling, machiam like in his own lala land..Pamela...nothing much changed...Yan Min very random..VERY...We were talking about what form molecues and atoms...she replied as saying molecue is bigger than atoms...like HUH?!..doesn't relate to our topic AT ALL!!!...Clifton..eh...I don't really wanna say it..but hope you get your 'inproper' *** checked..talling ya for the sake of a friend since young;)...
Me..Melissa say I'm still like a chatterbox..well, if you didn't realise[i doubt you do] i only talk much with you guys as I feel much more closer to you guys than my Secondary friends..Others see me as a 'foolstop guy'..i always end the topic[-_-]...Haha..
After dinner, we intended to watch movie..but all the movies were left with front seats!!![tragedy:'(]..But we ended up taking a train back home..On the journey back..we talk quite alot of things...like believing in after life, gods, religion...Basically..it is about our feelings towards death...When we reached Pasir Ris, other than Yong Quan and Clifton, the rest of us when Mac to have a rest..And I'm still hungry!!..i bought fries to eat..Evelyn bought drink..Awhile later, we took Bus 3 home...Ended up chatting conference talking about how stupid gangsters are..and how disgusting to do m*st*r*a**o* in the cinema and *r*l *e* in the toilet!!!!...And this is my day...What a day to spend off with my old mates...I love ya guys:D...

Your eyes were so promising, yet so contradicting..

I always wait silently for your return..

And finally, you are back...

But I find myself afraid to see you..

Maybe is due to the period of time..

That cause this phoebia..

Maybe I need time to get back to square one...

I know must do it..

As I love you...

Your eyes..

Your voice..

My feelings towards you...

Its totally undescribable...

Perhaps, this is what love is...

At least to me..

It is like what it seems to be...

Questions

Its Christmas Eve...

Again, I'm having tons of blahx3 going round in my head...

Sometimes...maybe most of the times...

People that seems to be rather close to you...

Are they there by your side to go through up and down with you?..

Or are they there by your side to understand you, then tell off all your secrets and things you ever said to anyone/everyone in order to make you feel embarrassed in front of others?..

Or even make use of you..e.g. being close to you so when he/she is in trouble but when you're in trouble, he/she just happen to be missing?...

That's not the end, some of 'em are being close to you just to show others that how caring he/she could be when you yourself knows how much she even bothers about you..

I'm feeling like that 'cause these possibilities/facts are happening on me...

I have my reasons not to name those out..

But if you people know who you are...

Then jolly well change for the sake of friendship...

Or you can just simply leave me alone and go away..

Don't tell me sorry..

Not because a good friend never should say sorry to the other...

But saying sorry now doesn't make any difference..

The main purpose for apologising is to make the victim feel less hurt...

And allowing the culprit/s to feel less guilty...

If that's the case, then why commit such fatal 'crime' to your good friend/buddy?...

Of course I don't exclude myself...

At least..I never do such things to my good friends/buddies..

At the end, I always end up speechless..

Why?..

'Cause I'm not one that will go and wake those that have mistreated me to wake up..

I'm not that sort of 'saint'..

They will cherish and treasure this relationship ONLY if they find out and realise it themselves..

That's all for today ..

-Merry Christmas- ......................in advanced=)

Snow

My days in China had ended..

Through this vacation..

I seen quite a number of incidents..

I learnt quite alot of things...

Be it in terms of music or character...

I realised that people from different places treat each other differently...

The people I met are all very, very warmhearted..

Anyway, I'm alone in Europe now..

The snow is beautiful..

Somehow, it gives me the feel of purity

Yet sorrow, despair and helpless..

Hope I could think over certain problems Im having..

Every now and then...Im still thinking of you..

You are so precious to me...

I miss you...

I....

What A Day

Last night after my syco reseating exams,

I went out with my friend, grace..

We went to Billy Bompers..

I oredered roast chicken but i kinda regretted it...

Cos' its simply hard to slice!..

Grace ordered my fav., Airlion Steak!!!

At first she was still thinking how well she wanted the beef to be done..

Then i told the waitress to give her RAW!..wahaha

But overall the meal was nice...

We bitched and gossip alot of people in our K1, K2 and primary school days!

Then sitting opposite us,

There is this American professional guitarist...

He kept staring at my pipa wondering whats that...

And i explained to him in detailed..

He was amzed and felt EXTREMELY strange about pipa..

Especially its tuning..[A E D A]

So i replied him..

'Its weird, but it sure rocks!!!'

When we are about to leave,

A lady came to me and gave me a $5.00 voucher for billy bompers

And i was like..co0l!..

The U.P. for dinner was $43.00+++

But in the end..it turned out to be $38.77!!!

Which means we are payin less than $20 each!!..

I rock~

Thats not all, afterwards

They have a lucky draw thing..

Grace and I each drew one..

And i got myself a meal with shake at only $5.00!!!

I rock man!!!

Haha..after the dinner,

Grace and I went to food junction and I ordered a pure lemon juice..

No dilution in it...No added sugar nor water..NOTHING..

They say its sour..But i never felt that sourness at all..

And those stall owner always give me that look as if I'm taking in some sulphate acid

Or something worse?!

While walking around..

I saw someone the least i would ever expect to see

Melissa!!!My primary rock buddy

She rocks man!!!...

She was the joker of PRPS...

I lost contact with her..

And who would know that I'm the FIRST to reached among the others!

Today was definately my day!!wahaha

Its been quite awhile since i ever felt like this...

But ...after all happy occasions..

I will still be back to square one eventually..

Maybe i really cannot survive without you by my side..

Maybe I'm being too bastard or whatever..

Why did you just leave me suddenly...

I still can't get over it...

I can’t believe -- a month ago

I was alone -- I didn’t know you

I hadn't seen, or heard your name

And even now, I’m so amazed it's like a dream

It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain

Some things are the way they are

And words just can’t explain

I never saw blue like that before

Across the sky, around the world

And just like a dream

You left me with no thoughts

I ...am feeling really very

Terrible, seriously in pain..

Dell'Amore Non Si Sa