Cold Turkey Effect

Don't think you're going to see it
But just needed to voice out
I am missing you like crazy
I am zoning out every other time thinking about you
I am possessed by the memories we had together
Every single minute kills
The insanity overwhelming
Sanity taking control
My mind's clogged up
Just like an addict undergoing cold turkey
That is how bad it is


Day 1
Signing out,

Still breathing.

Unknown

I See You

I see you
Walking through a dream
I see you
My light in darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me
Enchanting
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your life shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
You teach me how to see
All that’s beautiful
My senses touch your word I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you
I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends
I see me through your eyes
Living through life flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love, for you
When my heart was never open
And my spirit never free
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not division
All the colours of love and of life
Evermore

Complaint letter dedicated to the beloved DR. CHRISTOPHER CHONG of Singhealth Polyclinic...AWESOME.

It is with utmost regret that I have had to resort to such a measure to bring to light the unprofessional conduct of one of your doctors, Christopher Chong (Room 14, Pasir Ris Polyclinic).

I have tolerated his uncouth behaviour everytime I was attended to by him but I have no choice but to send this letter of complaint after the last visit.

I have had to endure excruciating pain in my left heel region to make the trip down to the polyclinic for medication as well as medical leave. However, when I was attended to by Dr Chong, I was made to seem like a fraud and was incredibly appalled at his dismissive attitude towards my injury. The moment I mentioned by complaint of pain in my left heel, he dismissed it, saying, "You wouldn't have made it to the clinic if it was THAT painful."

This encounter with his bitchy and dismissive attitude was certainly not an isolated incident as previous encounters with him were largely similar.

I refrained from retorting as I was already in so much pain and had no energy to deal with such nonsense.

If I had my way, I would have mentioned the very glaring flaw he had which made me doubt his professionalism in his job as a doctor. It would not have taken a genius to figure out that he wasn't exactly adhering to HPB's guidelines for healthy BMI.

I hope that your good company would put more effort into screening the types of doctors you place in your polyclinics as they are, after all, the first echelon of the medical institutional hierarchy. Having such uncouth and unservice-oriented staff would taint your otherwise good reputation as a healthcare provider.

I look forward to your favourable response.

Warmest regards,
Raymond Wong.

"When will you be home?" she asks
As we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
And yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

可惜不是你

這一刻　突然覺得好熟悉
像昨天　今天同時在放映
我這句語氣　原來好像你
不就是我們愛過的證據

差一點　騙了自己騙了你
愛與被愛不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出自己

努力為你改變
卻變不了　預留的伏線
以為在你身邊　那也算永遠

彷彿還是昨天
可是昨天　己非常遙遠
但閉上我雙眼　我還看得見

可惜不是你　陪我到最後
曾一起走　卻走失那路口
感謝那是你　牽過我的手
還能感受那溫柔

那一段　我們曾心貼著心
我想我更有權利關心你
可能你　已走進別人風景
多希望　也有　星光的投影

Requiem Aeternam

Grant them eternal rest, O Lord,

And may light eternal shine upon them.

It is fitting that a hymn should be raised unto Thee in Sion

And a vow paid to Thee in Jerusalem:

Give ear to my prayer, O Lord,

Unto Thee all flesh shall come at last.

Lord, have mercy!

Christ, have mercy!

Lord, have mercy!

Two Face.

Water
Always so weak
So fragile
Shows no masculinity
It sews through obstacles
Manipulating itself against danger
Puts off fire
Creates a storm that can kill everything

Such beautiful element
So elegant
Yet so deadly
So heartless

Love her
Hate him.

Dedication to myself

I am struggling
But no one knows
People think I am always joyous
But I am not
I hate being happy when I am not
I hate cheering people up
Being there for them
Letting them know
I am there for them
When I am sad and unstable myself
No one knows how I feel
I chose to be happy for the obvious
Doesn't mean I am happy

One

When, I saw you for the first time
I knew you were the one.
You didn't say a word to me.
But love, was in the air.

Then you held my hand
Pulled me into your world
From then on my life
Has changed for me

Now I'll never feel lonely again
Cause you are in my life...

Love...
How can I explain to you
The way I feel inside when I think of you..
I thank you for everything that you showed me.
Don't you ever forget that I love you.

Love, I know that someday real soon
You'll be right next to me.
Holding me so tight.
So I will always be yours.
Although we can't be together now.
Remember I am here for you.

And I know you're there for me.
Whenever I long to be with you
I just close my eyes and pretend you're here
I see you, I touch you, I feel you, like real

Nothing can ever change what I feel inside.

How long must I be far away from you?
I don't know dear, but I know we are One...

Why by Ayaka

The haze beyond your eyes cloud my sight
Are there feelings lying at the bottom of your heart?

Even if the whole world was yours
Would that bring you happiness?

Why do you look up at the lonesome sky?
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like
How you aren't good at putting things into words, so why not...

What happened in days long past?
In your eyes, as turn you gaze away from me

Do you know of such warmth
One that can embrace you on those lonely nights by yourself

Why are you so worked up on appearances
Why, open up your heart
I know you've had a heavy cross to bear
But I've got the strength to accept you
So why not try believing in me

The free are awkward...
The free are anxious...

Why do you look up at the lonesome sky
Why, let's see you smile
I know what you're like
How you aren't good at putting thing into words
So why not try believing in me

Adopt a pet, save a life

Vapour

I am so tired
So, so tired
It feels like one
Standing on
An ocean of razor ice
Forcing me to walk
But nowhere am I headed to
So cold
So alone
It felt llke
Me drying up.

You found me when I wasn't looking

It's 0130.

My room is cold and Junior is happily sleeping.

Thinking of you makes me miss you.

Missing you turns the like to love.

Loving you.... still getting there.

Growing in me everyday.

Falling in love?

Definitely

But taking pace.

Love is beautiful.

We are learning to embrace it.

And for that

I am happy I have met you.




I want to make you smile

As much as you want to make me happy

Walk out the door

Take a deep breath

For you know

We breath the same air

See the same sky

I learn to feel you with me

Close my eyes

And look into yours

I smiled.

Best break up letter ever!

Dear Y,

I'm writing you this email because I think our relationship has run its course. Do you realize that you're a total loser? You've changed too much since we met, and I don't like it. I can't believe how selfish you are. Relationships are supposed to be about sharing, jerk. Your arrogance seems to have no limits; it's as if you think you're actually somebody. I know you'll probably tell everyone that you dumped me, because you're a liar. But everyone knows that already, so they won't believe you. You couldn't even pass your exams without cheating; I should have known you'd cheat on me too, asshole. I called the nursery school program, and they agreed to let you in after they assessed your maturity level. It might be hard for you to believe, but one thing I can tell you for sure: you really need to work on your skills in bed. I mean, you're just plain bad at sex. You know, a little respect can go a long way. But the amount of respect you give me is only enough for ME to go a long way. A long way away from you, douchebag. And another thing: take a freakin shower! You smell so bad that the garbage collectors wonder what the smell is when they come down the street. Maybe part of the problem is that you drink so much. You can't actually call gin-flakes or beerios breakfast. I'm fed up with kissing an ashtray and seeing you waste your money on cancer sticks every day. It's disgusting. Doing drugs so much really got in the way of more important things. You need to clean yourself up. Why do you have to be so messy? How hard is it to put your dirty underwear in the laundry machine and wash a few dishes now and again? Frankly, you just don't care enough about me. Luckily I care enough about me to make up for it, by saying goodbye to you. The fact that you forgot our anniversary just confirms that it's time for "we" to become "me." Here's some food for thought: you're an asshole! It's not easy to carry on a successful relationship with someone like you. And by that, I mean someone who is downright stupid, you feebleminded dimwit. Oh yeah, I almost forgot to point out that you're pure evil, a characteristic that most people do NOT appreciate. You might want to work on that. I also really need more space, I don't like feeling like an elephant in a telephone booth. I hope you understand. I don't know how to break it to you, but I found someone else to replace you. You know what they say: out with the old, in with the new! The wise Righteous Brothers wrote a song called "You've lost that lovin' feeling." You might want to listen to it a few times, because I've lost that loving feeling. I don't really do the whole long distance relationship thing. New area code, new market, and it's time for me to go shopping.

Some people get very little money out of their job. Some people get dumped. Joy of joys, you get both. Why do you spend so little money on me? Buying me a happy meal at McDonald's does not count as taking me out to dinner. If you ever get engaged, just remember that an onion ring is not a valid replacement for a wedding ring. You're like cling wrap around me, but what you need to realize is that I am not a vegetable and your clinginess is unbearable. Sometimes you need to take things a bit slower, and just have fun. Unfortunately, this relationship is becoming too serious for my tastes. And as if that wasn't enough, you have to criticize me all the time! Now it's my turn to be the critic. I give you one thumb up: stick it up your ass! All that nagging of yours worked, assuming your intent was to get rid of me. At first I couldn't understand what smelled so bad when I spent time with you, but now it's clear: you're spoiled like a piece of meat left out in the sun. You don't live in a soap opera, so quit causing so much drama. I'm not a puppet, you can't just control me by pulling on a string, so why do you try to control everything I do? I need my freedom, and there's nothing you can do about it. Another problem is that you're irresponsible, and I just don't want to put up with the consequences of your decisions anymore. What really breaks the deal is your horrible grammar. Srsly d00d, learn 2 rite a sentance!

Even though our relationship is at its end, I hope we can still be friends. It's not you, it's me. Really. You're more like a sibling to me, you know? Give me back my keys, I don't want you coming around here anymore. You may not have realized, but I saw you with him, you fat-fried hamburger-humper! It may be a typical line, but it's true: we just aren't meant for each other. I may love you, but I'm definitely not in love with you. You're gonna have to learn to accept that. Why are you so boring? I've seen rocks that are more interesting than you. I'm not sure whether we can see each other again in the future but, for now at least, I definitely need my own space. I think you get the idea: this relationship is over.

I hope maggots devour your testicles,
X

Stuff We Did.

Listen

Listen to the wind
Listen to the voices
Listen to your heart.

A quiz result of myself, partially true

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.


The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.


Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.


The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.


How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.


What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.


Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Mesaage for you; always loved

This day
We have decided to walk
Our own individual paths
You have always been
So beautiful
So tolerant
So charming
How you dazzled me
How you touched me
How you loved me
With no boundaries
The kneeling down by the garden
Surprising me by my doorstep
The hundred roses
Although we can't be one
But I want you to know
That I have never love you any lesser
Than how much you loved me
Give me the strength
To see you grow beautifully
As I will to
At least we both know
That we have loved each other
So deeply
So truthfully
So wholeheartedly
And I want you to know that
That no one had ever
Loved me like you did
All and all
I want you
To remember me this way



You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks m heart
To know you'll be so far apart
I love you
Too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Home

Pick Me, Choose Me, Love Me

Standing.

It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me".
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.


It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won't hurt me.


It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.


If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the presence of the love.


But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I am left standing.

Time; You are for Me

Looking up into the sky
I know we share the same moon
Looking at the busy city
I know we stand on the same ground
Cold winter
Freezing
Yet so warm and fulfilling
It was then
The most fortunate coincidence
Like how you said
-It is magic-

Time brought us together
Also did it separate us
Two lands faraway
Yet bonded by love

Think of me
For you know
I will also miss you

Just a simple kiss
On the first night
Just that simple hug
We fell asleep upon
Just the simple love
That I know
You are for Me

Once Upon A Dream That Came True

How long can one lane be
How far can one flock of stairs take
How high can a tower go
To reach
To see
To feel
To acknowledge
Tell me what is in your mind
Tell me if I am in your heart
Holding you so tightly each time I see you
So tight my heart aches
The solemn twitch
Walking like an angel without his wings
Would I have been redefined
Do you see this
Would you see this
I looked into your beautiful eyes
I found truth inside you
But have you look me into the eyes
And tell me
You found yourself within me

Fearful tears relieved
Telling you
I am falling for you,
Unto your arms,
Into your embrace

I have fallen
Into your love

So Beautiful

Marriage

Always felt this video is very touching (=

...

I'm officially down again....

Neither Nor

Sometimes
I feel that when I'm down
When I really needed you
Physically, Desperately
Sometimes I feel
You're not sensitive to understand where I'm coming from
Sometimes
Its not about understanding the problem
Its to understand that someone is not feeling good
And be there for him or her physically
I should be left alone for a while.

Dream

Remember the times
When we sat on swings
The higher we swing
The closer we get to our dreams
Only to realise
We are merely reaching to the trees
That little innocence
Reminiscences every single soul
All of us
Getting ready to fly
Walking through these long paths
Looking back
We are still climbing
Who to say
We are no longer kids
The innocence we had
The love we shared
All ready to fly
Getting ready
For that beautiful beginning

如燕

愿意合上眼才能美夢無邊
別讓悔熏烏了從前

也許碎片才能讓回憶展顏
何妨瓷花拼湊明天

誰帶我尋獲幸福的模
卻自己謎中困鎖

誰為我留下繾綣的天涯
信物是抹晚霞

思念如燕它飛舞舌尖
若是真愛配嘗幾分苦甜

意念婆娑時間里推磨
追隨到何處才結果

燕如針線在青空縫編
幾幅女紅將以淚綴點

誓言斑駁情霧只是經過
風雨中且讓我盈步婀娜