What do I do

The sky is clear today, very clear
But why do I feel the emptiness filling up in me?
Why would the sky be clear today?
A strange feeling called upon me....
What do I do
I just felt, sad
I am feeling abandoned...
Why do people coe and go?
Why do people that I loved have to leave
Why can't I have more answers than questions?
I am but living in a world of stupidity
To whom may it seem bright
I see nothing but the emptiness out of me
To whom may it seem so strong
I see myself so weak, so fragile
What happen to me?
Why did it fall upon me?
The sky is so clear today
I don't want to be alone
I'm, afraid
I am scared of being alone
To be controlled by that over whelming darkness
I beg not
I don't want fear
I never wanted
What do I see?
What will I seek?
I don't see my future in myself
I don't myself in me, anymore
What have become of me?
What turned me
What did I turn myself into?
A person that fear upon himself
Eventually causing it to take him up
Bit by bit
Leaving him nothing but, again
The emptiness
What will I turn into?
The sky is so blue
My heart
I don't feel rhythm
I don't see colours
I don't hear voices
I lost nothing but myself
The sin
The deed
The saint
The devil
Nothing is all
But the emptiness that starts the world with
Seek of what I never know can come to
Should I continue to hold on to this faith?
Or should I believe in you
I am confused
Contradicting fear I say
Show me what's to and not
Love me...