Darkness

Why...

Why did i chose to know you..

Why did i decided it to be you...

Why did i devote so much to you..

Why did you stepped to my life so easily..

Why did i opened my door to you so easily...

Just why...

Everything around me now is confusing...

I can't think properly...

I have thought of many possibilities...

But the impact is just too great for me..

I need you..

I doubt you ever realised it...

Were you ever touched by me...

You are one that truly devoted too much...

Too much till i can't do anything....

You treated me in such cold attitude..

I felt being abandoned...

Thrown into darkness once agan...

What can i do...

What will i wish for...

To make you realise...

I love you...

Sky

Sky moved...

Clouds stilled...

Red over the Dark...

Dark surrounded by the Red...

Rain drops...

I am moved...

Distant PromiseII

Seeing you makes me feel relief...

Seeing you makes me feel relaxed...

Memories inside you...

Made me feel distance from you...

But i like being with you...

I like going out with you...

I like walking beside with you...

I like to spend my every single second with you...

I might not understand your pain that your memories brought you...

But i will be here to go through with you...

Its a distant promise i made...

And never will i break this promise...

Seasons come and go...

Thou shall not change its love for thee...

what the hell

You are stupid
Why don't you understand
Don't you get it
You made me kinda pissed
Cause you mean to me
I mean it
I don't know what to say
I just wanna voice out
Stop feigning ingorance already
I can't take it
Anymore

Where am i leading to?

Well...
How am i gonna start...
Though everything seems going fine now...
But i'm still feeling very troubled...
Maybe i am not confident for myself....
I'm very afraid of losing another person again....
I dare not do anything...
Do anything to improve our situation to a better stage...
I'm afraid i might worsen the situation...
I do not know what can i do...
I do not know what am i supposed to do...
Maybe im always lost...
Always...
What am i...
I don't know...
Hiding myself...
Again and again...
Is this...
A kinda life i am suppose to lead...
I guess so...
The sky was beautiful...
The sea was nice...
THe sea waves were peaceful...
But...
This were in the past...
Past...

Why...

Some say i should say...
Some say i should not...
Inside me...
I truly wanna let you know...
But i can't put myself through to tell you...
Maybe i am afraid i can't face reality...
I am really useless...
Worthless...
Why ain't i possible to tell you straight to the point...
Everytime...
I see your charming eyes...
Your eyes that gives that lovely gaze...
The more i see you...
The more i feel worthless...
Why can't i juz confess my love to you...
Why...

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I suck

What am i gonna do...
All this crap im facing...
There is you and you...
How am i gonna do...
What can i do...
Fate is playing a joke?..
But i just don't wanna face such problems...
Be it that i'm coward or what so ever..
Why cant' fate let me get to know just you....
I rather let it be that way than this...
Or maybe...
I'm crap...
Not others...
But me...
Maybe i have to leave..
Leave this place i never thought i belong to...
I can't take it...
This pressure...
I...
Am sorry...

You...

Its been a long time since i felt this again...
Is it that I still could not let it go...
Is it that I still could not face reality...
I felt as if I'm greatly under pressure...
I wish you could hear my pain and sorrow...
People say ending lives is an act of stupidity...
Perhaps to me...
Its a kind of realease...
Seeing you makes me feel heavenly...
Seeing you makes me feel living hell...
I really wish to tell everyone who you are...
But I can't...
I just can't...
At least for your sake...
Secretly I looked at you with nobody's notice...
My heart is as if it got stabbed...
Stabbed by countless numbers of sharp objects...
I even dreamt of you few days ago...
I felt even more painful...
Is it just my depression...
Maybe yes...
I would assume so...
For others I may not know...
But I will...
I will wait for you...
Be it twenty years or thirty years...
I will wait for you...

Noted by Jing Xuan(:

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Feelings in past. Never shall it fade.

Where are you?
Why ain't I able to catch a sight of you?
Not even in a glance
Echoes of your voices embrance my surrounding
The sense of security of you inside me
Taste of happiness never forgotten
Silence filled the air
Whispers of droplets being heard
Did i cry?
I believed i did not
But inside me
Left with only a dead soul trapped in this shell
Leave me alone
Hence I only need you
When will you come by?
When will you save me from deep down under?
When will you be by my side?
Feelings in the past
Never being forgotten
Forever will it stay...

Unbreak my heart...

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears awayI need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
1-Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Ohh, oh Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on

How Do I LIve...

If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be
Oh I, I need you in my ar

How do I get through one night without you

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Need you to holdYou're my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever goHow do I ever, ever survive
How do I How do I
Oh, how do I live
Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There'd be no world left for me
And I, oh Baby, I don't know what I would doI'd be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without youI want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I How do I
Oh, how do I live
Please tell me baby
How do I go onIf you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know that you're everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without youI want to know
How do I breathe without youIf you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I How do I
Oh, how do I livehow do I live without you
how do I live without you baby
how do I live....

Liu Lao Shi Rockz...

Today will be Mdm Liu's last day in Singapore...she will be going back to her country in China....we went to Changi Airport around 2130...we gave her presents and our blessings...we sent her all the way as far as we could....many cried...very sad....haiz....many teachers came and send her off too...even ex-teachers came too...haha....Liu Lao Shi Rockxx!!!!

...Ray of Light...

Ray of Light...

A light that leads people in need to freedom...

A light that brought people to prosperity...

A light that harmonise people together...

This light...stays in everyone's heart and soul...

Somehow rather...

I am not able to find this light in me...

I had been finding the light since that day...

And no positive results shown...

I could sense that...

The Ray of Light...

No longer stays by my side guiding me anymore...

Where is my saviour...

Where is my life...

Where....is my...

...Soul...

i hate human

I hate mankind.... So what if they are pure by heart... Their soul had already been gobbled up by devil's evil intention... Mankind... The true destruction to this world... Everyone said they are trying to save the world.... Everyone say they are trying to kill the world.... Silence..... I really need you by my side.... Can you be with me just for awhile... I am in a dark room... Waiting upon nothing but your presence.... I died.... My soul stayed alive to wait for you.... Crying... Depressed.... Me alone fading...

I am very happy=]

Weee~~!!!!haha....well...performed for S.P.C.O. as guest musician tonight..BUT!!!..tts not my happy incident wor...hehe....'ta' was there as guest player too!!!...hehe....den we chatted alot of rubbish...or rather, i got entertained...wahahaha...co0l huh...the part tt i feel HEAVEN is when 'ta' touched my cheek, my chin, my spine area & my thigh!!!=p....today is my happiest day of my life!!!!!!!......today really rox!!!....i accompanied 'ta' for 2x dinner!!!...PIG...i even da le 'ta' de du zi....felt so secure kinda a feeling when im physically interacting with 'ta'...dun think dirty hor.. not tt kinda interact k =x...ai yah!!!too happy le....buaiz!...i wanna go n view 'ta' pics n go to slp liao...night!!!!!wish all things n objects on earth happy!!!!....WO YONG YUAN AI NI!!!!=)

Mirror...Life...Past...Present...Future?

Once upon a time, there was a scholar... He couldn't understand why his girlfriend wants to break with him when he treats her positively... And so, he went to the temple to seek a monk to get enlightened... After knowing the situation, the monk gave him a mirror and told him to look into the mirror... In the mirror, he sees a very beautiful beach... On the beach, there is a young and beautiful lady already dead lying on the beach naked... Later on, through the mirror, the scholar saw a man passed by... He saw the lady, he shooked his head and walk away... After which, another person passed by... He saw the lady, he took off his shirt and covered the lady and walk away... Lastly, the 3rd person passed by... He saw the lady, he dug a hole and buried the lady in a proper manner... After watching this image, the scholar got confused and asked the monk for explanation... The monk then told him, "You are the person that covered her with your shirt... She came to the 'Present' to return you this favour... And now....she has to return the big favour to the person that buried her properly..." Upon hearing this, the scholar finally understood... Everything was predestined before anyone knew it... But no matter what... The scholar waits everyday.... Never failed to stop waiting... Even if the girls get married, he will still be secretly by her side... Protecting her.... Even if its a life in exchange for another.... He waited till he died... After his death, the monk found a letter under his clothes... "Zi Yi Fei Ci Yi, Ai Jun Wei Jun Wang, Si Guo Ai Guo, Qing Fei Ding Ren, Lun Hui Zai Xu'' ...

Where Can I Go...

Hell waits upon my arrival. Heaven will not tolerate my presence. Earth pities me. Where else can I go? How far can I stretch to seek help? How long can I find a pillar to hold upon? How pathetic I can be. Face reality. I'm all alone. I cry upon the stary night. I pray among the noisy crowds. What am I trying to show? I don't know. Where am I going? Where can I go? There is nowhere else i can head to. The very end of my journey........

I don't know

Yay!!!!Cheng san concert was rather successful.....wahaah!!!!Our encore was rather weird...but audience seems to enjoy it...haha....But that not all people are feeling well.... Chai Xia was ill before the rehearsal....but she was alright later....during the breaks before that actual performance starts, i went to take the brosure went to the corridor to get my pipa and i saw 'ta' ....'ta' stretched 'ta' hand forward as if 'ta' expect to get something from me...haha....then i went to weiling and company....they playing "The Unforgettable Water Splashing Event"....haha....Minutes later the performance started....we played Dreamt of the Red Chamber as our opening piece...and Charm of Autumn.....and it was interval already!...(thats why i say....tai xia yi ge zhong....tai shang yi fen zhong...)then we went backstage's corridor ...then me...you guo, weiling played "give me a rose"haha...and played "Cao yuan xiao jie mei"!!!whaaha.....and soon interval was over...and we continued our pieces....we played "Reveire of the Green Pastures", "An Eagle's Romance", and the climax of the conert, "The Legend of the Dragon"!!!!Woohooo....haha....exciting...and later we played "Chi dao shang de yue hui" and "Ying Chun Jie Fu" for encore....haha....after everything....everyone was infested by an idiom..."Guang Mang Wan Zhang"....wahahah....at last...i reached home....after my bath....stil thinking of 'ta'.....spending my time thinking of 'ta'....haha....so late le...better go sleep..night!....lonely star.....