When time stops
The dark cloud starts moving in
As you see the sun kissing you goodbye
You know that the land is going to sleep
You know that the sea is whispering
And you know that
You are bidding your farewell
Brushes of fields
Gentling kissing your lips
Seeing an endless horizon
Going through the far end
And softly patting you from your back
When I see the red mixing the yellow
When I see the yellow mixing with the blue
When I see everything
Turning into nothing
Turning into a quiet dream
What did you see?
To all
To them
To he
To she
To it
To us
To me
To you
Thank you for loving me Thank you for letting me into your world Thank you for bringing me into you Without you I wouldn't have known what love is Without you I wouldn't have been so true Without you I wouldn't have been so clear With you by my side I could care less about the world With you by my side I could cry with a shoulder to lean on With you by my side I could walk till the sun sleeps With you around me I have become decent With you around me I have seen more than what the eye has to offer I miss you I love you And you are the only one I love It was you It is you And it will be you It has always been you.
Nothing special But just to let you know I am still here when you need me Times may be difficult But things will get better Like we always know it Eventually You will be OK I will be OK We will be OK Worst comes If I cannot pull you back from the fall I will fall with you At least you won't be alone So Everything will be OK
When you first came into my life
I knew you were the best thing that could ever happen to me
You never left me
Everyday you looked at me
With optimism and smiles
The times when we play hide-and-seek
The times when we bite each others' hand/paw
When we shower together
Getting wet at the beach
The times when we always snuggled each other to bed
When you listen to me sing
When you listen to me practice
When you listen to me talk
When you listen to me shout
When you listen to my secrets
When you listen to my bad days
The days when you do nothing
But stare outside the window on my bed
While I lie down
And stare at you
The times when I would come to your bed
And cuddle with you
When the air is too cold
I would stroke your head
And sing you to sleep
You are my baby boy
And I love you so much
Although I am far away
But I hope you can feel my love
And feel safe
For I love you
And I am sure you know
You are with me
Everywhere I go
For you are my one only
Junior.
When you look at the stars shimmering
I will then hear a very faint howling
From far
I could see a mermaid
As she leaps through time
Finding her lost voice
When you throw yourself a pebble
It may skid pass a pond
Maybe three bounces
Maybe four
And then you hear it's echo
Listen
And you shall be heard
Speak
And you shall be loved
Hold
And you shall be given
Breathe
And you shall be remembered
Eternity in an eye of solemness
Solitude
Is it not a virtue of silence
Like the sun seeking a foreign land
When the land was never foreign to it's warmth
And thus
The new beginning begins
Let us all arise
Only to dive in
Farther
Deeper
Stronger
And Kinder
After all
Rest is all we need
And all we have is at rest
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
Sometimes There are so many things That I want to talk to you about From how earth was created To how many forks should we buy Today The stars are shining today The air is quiet And I just want to say I love you Nothing more Just I love you Even if the sky falls tomorrow The rock turns into dust I will still love you All the way
As the night closes in Like the curtains closes from a concert People start to leave One by one When they go I see the stage lights dim Like the stars Shimmering faintly But I know I always have you Like the dark sky The moon is always there Whether raining or clear You promise to always be there for me
Morning arises And when the clouds shades the earth People start to walk the streets Looking everywhere I couldn't seem to find you My heart cries for you And your ray of light Shines through the cloud Just like the Sun I remember your smile Your laugh Your warmth Your embrace
Promise to never let me go That we are forever Until after the end of time How can I ever miss you in my life For you are the one The one and only Never to leave me You are my Sun and my Moon
As I lay me down Heaven hear me now I am lost without a cause After giving it my all
Winter storms have come And darkened my sun After all that I’ve been through Who on earth can I turn to?
I look to you After all my strength is gone In you I can be strong I look to you And when melodies are gone In you I hear a song I look to you
Have to lose my breath There's no fighting left Sinking to rise no more Searching for that open door
And every road that I've taken Led to my regret And I don't know if I'm going make it Nothing to do but lift my head
My levees are broken My walls are coming down on me My rain is falling Defeat is calling I need you to set me free Take me far away from the battle I need you
I look to you
Thursday, June 30, 2011
If you drop a rock in a pond You'll hear a splash If you pull the bow on a violin You'll hear melodies If you wish upon a star You'll hear your prayers But if you drop a feather in fire You'll hear something very different
I miss the times when we lie down Looking at each other Knowing that we are with each other Seeing you wake up to me Kissing onto my forehead You are always the one The one I will always love Wherever I am Eastern Sea Western Woods Southern Sun Northern Sky I am always yours To love To wait upon To embrace To come back to For I love you And only you I give myself to
One day When you see the sky with blue stars Then you will see That our hearts are one.
When life becomes an uncertainty We pray for salvation We hope for the best Little do we know That obstacles are there For us to leap over And bring life back to a greater purpose
Like what I always picture when I'm on a horse Whether if its jumping or galloping Both the stallion and I knew That there are always something better Something greater in front of us That's why we jump That's why we run for it
Why do we fear Because we don't want to lose what's closest to our hearts If indifference was meant to be great Then God would have given us no more than a piece of rock for his love
To those who seek the rain There will be others whom seek the sun And those that seek to be loved There will be others whom rather be hated In the end We are nothing but living through the circle of consequences
Just like the Three 'R's We reuse our emotions Again and again Just to seek that very comfort inside and amongst ourselves We reduce our basic human instinct Just so as to reach zenith And to forget how much magic we are standing on Finally We recycle our memories Just to bring in 'better' ones Sometimes Forgetting that we already have the best memory within us
Humans Made up of many imperfections They smile They love They shout They hate After that They all come together Breathing the same air So what do we do We stay calm And keep breathing So to know that When you fall I am there to hold you all the way And when I do fall I will want you to be there for me Even though the fall might be great Your embrace will cushion it all So let me fall into you Breathe And remember We see the same sky We step foot on the same soil And We breathe the same air.
I miss you I woke up in the middle of the night With an empty bed Missing your smell Missing your touch Missing your kiss Missing you I miss you so much I just miss you so deeply
How are you? I hope you had a great day and evening I pray that you will be okay I wish that you can stop being angry I am sorry that I have did bad things I am upset that I cannot make you any happier I am loathed at for what I behaved
Nevertheless, I love you It is okay that you don't believe It is not okay But it will be okay One day You will know That I speak the truth And only the truth Is in me
Gloomy day Cloudy day Rainy day It rained all day Never stopped I did nothing much today I had friends that came over to spend time with me Nothing much happened today A couple of bad dreams in the night But nothing bad happened I pray that you will be happy And I know you will be
You are A very intelligent A very capable A very charming A very handsome man You will succeed in every thing you do And people will be lining up to you They are probably doing it now already And it's good for you What am I to say anything right? I am just an ordinary person That got in your way That may have In a way Helped you find love Aside the anger Sadness I helped you find love Love that you least expect it to come
I am nothing more than ordinary person Unlike you You have everything you want And you will never lose You always win I don't mind losing Because I need you more than you ever needed me And I guess that's okay That you will never know
You are an amazing person And I am Nothing but an ordinary person
You are always my husband That loves me deeply And I am always the baby That never stop loving you
Alone inside my head I'm sorry But I feel so lonely trapped inside my skin It's colder when I breathe I'm a ship that is out to sea It is the way you move It is the way you turn me The way I sing for you And all the sounds Make you fall from all the ways that keep you far from me And all I hear Are the voices in the air that keep reminding me You're all that is in my head You cover up your feet Walk away with me The nights were lovely and the wind still blowing You can tell me how you feel You're not standing here In fact You're no where near It is a dream I'm having and I keep relapsing All that is in my head
I am a good person I love animals I am a gentle person I care for people These are the few things that are true Loving you It is one of the few things That I know is also true Loving you is the only thing That I know is right That you are the only person I will love I will always love you Because you are in me And loving you Makes me an honest person Sorry that I have failed to show you But loving you Makes me become a better person Makes me become an honest person Loving you Makes me Me Loving you Makes me believe And loving you...
Raymond loves Nicholas That's the only thing that is hanging on The only thing left that he believes in
"When will you be home?" He asked "...." That is all he got And so, Raymond continues waiting He knows nothing But only that he loves Nicholas very much "When will he see it?" He asked "...." That is all he got And so, Raymond continues waiting He knows nothing But only that he loves Nicholas till after the end of time
Everyday, I think of you Are you thinking of me? Or am I gone Like dust Off your memories Maybe I am just ...gone But you are never gone You are always in my heart You are always everywhere with me From twilight to dawn You are always with me I hope I am always with you too I don't want to be gone away from you But "...." Is all I got So Raymond loves Nicholas
So many things I can say So many things I have said But it comes down to I am truly sorry And I love you forever You don't need to believe it You always think I am weak It's okay Because I am not I love you You are my only love So many things I want to say When you believe And ask your heart You will One day know That I love you forever
Love It's so easy to fall in love But how many finally understood the meaning of love I was one That failed to understand love I failed myself so badly That I finally understood love And now You my love Are gone Many people come to me Claimed their love for me But who really understood What love was like For me For you For us If only they understood They would know That they are nothing compared to you If only you knew You would have understood That I meant no harm If only I was truthful to myself I would have made you notice How much I love you
I love you It is something That I tell you everyday You might not hear it But it's okay Because I love you And I will always love you You might never know But it will be fine Because you're my forever And I will always be your husband One life time There can only be One soul mate Lover Husband And You are my Soul mate Lover Husband You may never know But I am always yours
There might have been a time And I would give myself away Once upon a time I didn’t give a damn But now Just don’t give up It messed me up But I’m working it out And I won’t let you down It’s plain to see That you’re beautiful And it’s nothing wrong with you I was the freak But thank you for loving me 'Cause you are doing it perfectly There might have been a time When I would let you step away I wouldn’t even try But I know you can save my life So Do not give up I’m working it out I won’t let you down
Concert's in 2 day's time And after that I have another recital on the 3rd Jan '11 I.. am lost I miss your greetings to me I miss your luck Please talk to me again I love you My Monster
Just here to say I love you No matter where or when I always love you Even if you feel indifferent towards me I will forever love you I am sorry That I failed to show you The gentle, fragile and loving side of me The real side of me I am sorry I am sorry I have hurt you You will always be my husband My man I will treasure you I will cherish you And I will keep you safe in my heart Sorry for the past troubles that I have caused you I love you Forever...
You are my sunshine My only sunshine You make me happy When skies are grey You never know dear How much I love you Please don't take My sunshine away
Please don't let this feeling end It's everything I am Everything I want to be I can see what's mine now Finding out what's true Since I found you Looking through the eyes of love And now I can take the time I can see my life As it comes up shining now Reaching out to touch you I can feel so much Since I found you Looking through the eyes of love And now I do believe That even in the storm we'll find some light Knowing you're beside me I'm alright Please don't let this feeling end It's everything I am Everything I want to be I can see what's mine now Finding out what's true Since I found you Looking through the eyes of you
In the Winter I was struggling to pull through I didn't know how I could possibly hold on Then you came Your hands They were so warm You grabbed my cold hands Almost frost bitten You held them tight And brought me up I felt your breath I heard your voice I smell you You hugged me To prevent me from freezing myself Your love Was more than greatness I was too cold I shut you away Because I never believed in myself But I believed that you will warm me up And bring me closer to you But when I cracked the ice Reaching my hands to the outside world I realise you are not there anymore You left Still I love you You may never want to believe that the ice has melted But it finally did And I do love you And my heart was with you long before I knew where it was It has been with you always Even before I found it So it's okay I will forever be with you Even when we're oceans apart I love you Sorry I have hurt you But I love you And only you
Please come back home Will you please come back home I am begging you Pleading you To come back home Please come home Baby misses you And he loves you a lot Please come home...
Listen... Use your heart and listen Use your love and feel I am that gentle person you knew I always have been Along the way I got very messed up So bad that my good side got caught up Like a spider stuck within it's web And slowly seeing himself decay Then you came You helped me untangle the web You realised that there were many knots to untie But you never stopped trying I did I stopped Because I was scared I was scared that After breaking the knots You will realise that I am actually not a spider But a butterfly that flew into the spider's web A butterfly that hated his life And wanted to become someone else So the butterfly stopped He stopped struggling He stopped struggling for his own life And waited to decay Yet You didn't stop Knowing that the web was venomous You tried It was the butterfly that let you down It was I That let you down
The gentle yet fragile Has led himself down the road He is still the gentle person you knew He still possessed the beautiful soul It maybe dimmed from the past events But please don't lose hope Because he will one day Shine again Turning into a star He will shine so brightly His hopes can spread amongst others around him Leaving rainbow to every people he greets
Don't lose hope on this butterfly Don't lose hope on me Don't lose hope on us For I love you For what we have For the strength we have Don't give up Don't walk away Come back For I am here Waiting for you You are the man The butterfly struggles to get out from the web now Flying to your side And never leaving you again
So don't give up Listen to the wind Listen to the river Listen to my heart And feel my soul and love For they were with you all these while I am with you Listen...
Baby loves you forever I know I wasn't a very good apologist I would crawl to say sorry But I am truly sorry over what I did Please forgive me and come back Baby loves you He adores you And he treasures you a lot Please come back Baby loves you Please talk to me again....
Good morning Nicholas Please talk to me again I miss you Baby misses you a lot He is sorry for what he did Please come back Baby needs Monster He knows he is repeating what he said again But that's the only thing he can say Please come back Baby needs you Why won't you come home Please come back home I am sorry for what I did Please come home
I will wait for your return And the days that we take the long journey on a road trip once more It was such that perfect day The sky could be blue Without you It is a waste of time I don't wanna leave you ever again Where we sit by the strawberry swing And looking across the never ending Big blue sky Without you It's just a waste of time Merry Christmas
I don't know if you get it I really don't Because I need you I need you with me To walk the streets To hold my hands To tell me how much you love me To sit on the rocky chair outside our house As we grow old together Looking at dogs running I need you to know That all I ever wanted is you That all I ever wished for Is you, Nicholas I don't know if you get that Because I love you I crossed oceans for you Cracked the hard shell of mine Just to spend the rest of my life with you I am willing to kill my past and pull myself out of it I didn't know how to But because you gave me strength You gave me more than what I have ever expected for I am naked For you I am standing naked In front of you and everybody Not because I owe them anything But I owe you I owe you Me Not just bits of myself Not any less Just the true, honest, me And you don't see it In fact You think I am a jerk I am a whore And a slut And it is okay Because I know I am not And I will show you I will prove to you That I am not That I am worthy of your love That I belong to you That we belong to each other I am a man That once committed many mistakes But now I am here as your husband Wanting to come home I am a very, very good person We are very good people We make each other sane We made love possible You are not going to think that you can just leave Because the stress was too much We made a promise You made a promise That you will love me forever That for better or worse You will fix me So this is my promise to you I love you forever Alone standing or not I am loving you forever Because you are my home You are my life You are my husband And we don't quit on each other We never quit on each other Never did Not now And never will I will pull you out from the grave if I have to To tell you how much I love you This is your one true love Alive and standing We never quit on each other And I love you
Looking up the sky The clouds dancing Like the memories in waltz Do you miss me Walking down every road The voyage we took We turned the bricks yellow We granted the possible Did you still remember the magic we created With our hands We brought so much sparks to life We made people fly while soaring through skies We talked to animals while they entrust their hearts to us I will send a Unicorn A Pegasus To bring you back to me We are the castle The fortress The powerful The beautiful This is us Had been and will be This is our love This is our story Our forever after You I hold dear to I can feel you Every second And I know you can feel me Do not run away Because we are strong Because we are the yellow bricks Because we are the magic Because I love you Because you love me Because we love us And because of the because We will soar through the heavens this time Because we are the possible We are the Forever.
Baby loves you He misses you Please come back for Baby He just wants his Nicholas back to his arms again He loves Nicholas so much Just call baby and they can solve whatever problems they have together And they can be happy again Why does Nicholas wants to leave just like that? Baby wants nothing but Monster Please come back I want us to be together again I missed the times when we were together Doing everything Only Nicholas makes Baby really happy And only with Nicholas can he find comfort in home Baby is very sorry for what he did Please come back Baby wants to rebuild a nice, comfortable and secure home with Monster He loves Monster a lot Please come home.
He who held strong Passes one by with a gush Never turns back Like the black wind He trots Marking every ground he steps on And left them by There he canters Leaving me by He never turned back Where would he be? Where would my love be? I feel him When the maple leave kisses my face Sweeping my tears away Where is he? Where is my love? I see him When the angels came to me Covering me with shelter Where is he leaving? Where is my love leaving? I hear him When the voices speak Bringing me guidance As he cantered I stood by waiting...
I miss you so much Everyday I long for you Your voice Your call Your smile When you smile at me I miss every part of you No one can replace you I hope you know that I pray that you will see through the fact That I truly love you And I don't want to live without you You are my Monster Forever you will be my one and only Monster Never have I seek forgiveness from anyone I am really changing to become a better person And I pray that you will forgive my mistakes And come home to love me once more I love you Forever until after the end of time
I love you so much Monster I am waiting for you to come back I love you forever x infinty remember? You love me forever x forever I won't forget And I have no intentions to back out The things that I promised you I will live up to it These weren't said on moment of impulse These are real As real as we can ever get For better or worse We promise to stick by each other And I am honoring my words Because you are my one true love Please be strong with Baby And we will have our Happy, forgiving and undying love ever after.
I love you I really do And I hope you see it And I hope you can see pass the mistakes I did I flew to see you because I realise what I did was grave And I wanted to right the things that were once wrong I want us to be happy again I know we can I love you forever I pray that you will see through the aches And we will be able to create a whole new, better world together I said it many time already But I am going to say it again When we meet We will never be apart again. I just want to be with you Hold you so tight Loving you Spending every moments with you And that is all I want. I love you
You and Me I have been defensive Because I fear Fear that you, my one true love Might leave me one day Because I was a liar But under that skin I am just a gentle person with so much love I have ever wanted to give to you Just keeps on giving Never stopping
You are defensive now Because you fear Fear that I, your one true love Might hurt you again Because you cannot take the pain any deeper But under that skin You know you just love me so much that all you have ever wanted to do is just to spend forever with me Just keeps on going Never stopping
You and I We are just a couple that may have faced more problems than others did But under that skin We truthfully, honestly, genuinely and sincerely want to spend eternity together with each other We love each other so much that sometimes we fight I know I have made you tired But now, it's okay You can rest 'Cause it is my turn to do my part And so you can lean on me And I will keep on trying Till the day that you will bring me home Because you love me Because I love you Because....
You and Me
Just to let you know that It is true I could have still choose to lie and be dishonest to people and you But I chose to step out of it I choose to be honest and ask myself if I really do love you And because I do I am willing to stand, naked in front you Because I want to I want to let you know that I am truly in love with you And you have imprinted in me I wouldn't have been a real person now without you You have always been my strength My motivation My inspiration You are all I have asked for Because I love you And there is nothing more than an honest and sincere love that I want to share with you Because you deserve this You deserve to see our happiness You deserve to hear my honesty You deserve to feel my undying love You deserve all of me And I am right here Honest and faithful I shall stand With nothing more I cannot give With my two feet I shall stand And wait for you My love My one true and only love My man My husband My soul mate
I miss you so much Don't hide away from me anymore Any problems, we can solve it together I miss you so much Nicholas Why do you choose to ignore me when I have finally become good? When we can finally walk towards bliss and happiness Please come home? I have finally, after so many obstacle and problems Seen beyond my own fear which I thought I will never overcome and I did So please see beyond it too and realise my sincerity, love and honesty We love each other so much I never wanted us to become like this I love you so much I hope that means something to you Please come back to me Baby loves you And he never wanted to leave you Please don't leave Baby He's alone He just wants Monster That's all Please come back to Baby Please...
I miss you so much Do you know? I long for your voice Your comfort Being with you is the only thing I have ever wanted Its the honest truth I know my problems are not worth it for you to help my solve But I have already reconciled with them From myself to family, and to friends. I have never been anymore honest than this time in my life And the stone that I had have been lifted Now, I just wanna focus on you I just need you to know That no one can replace you That no one can take you away from me That I only love you That no one will be able to separate us ever again That you are my one true love
I am not angry I am not mad I am just patiently waiting for you to let me home Don't lock the doors to yourself Let me home once more And I will bring whatever I lost Back home again
Monster doesn't have to be strong alone anymore This time He can be strong, together with Baby And never shall they be apart again
When I saw you for the first time I knew you were the one You didn’t say a word to me But love was in the air Then, you held my hand And pulled me into your world From then on, my life has changed for good Now I’ll never feel lonely again ’cause you are in my life.
Love, how can I explain to you The way I feel inside when I think of you. I thank you for everything that you’ve showed me. Don’t you ever forget that I love you
Love, I know that someday real soon You’ll be right next to me Holding me so tight, so I will always be yours Although we can’t be together now Remember I am here for you And I know you’re there for me.
Whenever I long to be with you, I just close my eyes and pretend you’re here I see you, I touch you, I feel you, like real Nothing can ever change When I feel inside.
How long must I be far away from you I don’t know dear, but I know We are one.
I have never forgotten a single word you told me From the chat we started to the very last word you told me I know I have always been putting up a false front to you Because I was scared But I have never forgotten what you said to me Each and single them mean everything to me I promise to love you forever until after the end of time I promise to grow old with you I promise to only belong to you You promise to protect me You promise never to leave me You promise to grow old with me You mean the world to me You always have And never will that change I am sorry I was so stubborn Always trying to speak the opposite But I have never been more honest and truthful than before I love you forever My Monster Nothing can make me change this You mean forever to me
If you lose hope I will give you hope If you lose your way I shall be your compass If you fear I shall be your strength No more threats and negativity Just more affirmations and steadiness The love only gets stronger each time after a breakdown Our love is getting way stronger Give me your hand And I will give you a miracle
"I love you, truly. I am strong, we are strong. Monster"
I found a piece of torn page from the book, "Alice in Wonderland" while waiting for the bus today. "Well!" Alice thought to herself. After a fall like this, I shall think nothing of tumbling downstairs!" Down, down, down. Would the fall ever come to an end? I wonder how many miles I have fallen? I must be getting somewhere near."
I have fallen far beneath in the past I am also done falling The fall has come to an end I have reached somewhere near And that is your heart I am so close You are so close We are so close My heart is with you Let me home And I shall bring all the happiness you deserve All back, if not, better! I have faith that I can create the magic Loving you have been the best thing that ever happen to my life
An early post it is. Nothing much, just to tell you how much I love you Please don't give up hope Because we have so much more to give I know you're hurt and being protective And Baby has learnt his lesson Baby is not asking for more Just one more chance To let Baby right the mistakes he had committed Baby just wants to come home to Monster That's all Don't stop believing in us You promised to marry me one day And we promised forever until after the end of time We don't promise easily But when we do It is then done Don't run away from Baby Because Baby will find you down the road And he will hug Monster so tight And make sure he doesn't run away from Baby this time Baby loved the times when they spent in Canberra And he wants to do that with Monster for the rest of his life Baby realised that roaming around was stupid And he just wants to climb into Monster's arms and say "Goodnight Monster and dream of me!" You've always told me this, but this time, I am saying it to you You have no idea how much I love you Actually, I thought I just loved you But until then I realised that I love you I love you I know home is safe and comfortable But don't worry When Monster thinks it is safe to step out Baby will be waiting They ask me why? I say, "Nothing much, just that he is my man. The man that believed in us, the husband that loves me more than anyone can imagine and the soulmate that brings nothing but beauty into Baby's life." I love you Please forgive Baby and let me come home
How was your Saturday? I had a concert at NAFA today in the afternoon. It was not tiring but the pieces were easy so I was half the time zoning out! I had a few conversation with a violinist and she asked me if I am interested in taking Dip in teaching. Maybe I should take that. It was a good concert because I get to see friends I haven't seen for ages. After that, I walked with Esther to Bugis train station and then to Raffles Place to Desmond's birthday party at Ascott's. As expected, Jaslyn was late again! When we got there, no one else was there! We were like really punctual! We talked a bit, met Desmond's new bf, Just hanging around basically. Then I saw Melvin, Bryan's ex. Surprisingly, he is another K-Pop fan like Jaslyn! They all are supporting us. They all know we are more than just the bickering and physical.
I am not giving up on you I am not giving up on us I love you more than anything in this world I am sorry we fought I am genuinely sorry I am doing everything I can to get you back I know its not easy but for what's worth You ARE the love of my life My one true love I have did wrong And I can tell you each and single of it Each you would only talk to me This time It is different I know it and you know it Give us this chance that we owed ourselves To work things together We have always been trying to work things out alone But its too much We have to work it out together And I want us to work this out together And after that We can soar the sky
I should have understood earlier But I know its not too late If there's a limit to my life I rather use it to love you and spend time together forever Indifference is bad Quarreling is as bad I just wanna spend my life loving you Let's rebuild We will learn to love better
I am sorry we fought I am sorry I was reckless I am sorry I took advantages of you I am sorry I didn't learn my mistakes previously I am sorry I for things I have done I am sorry for annoying you I am sorry I came to Perth to find you I am sorry I love you so much I am sorry
Please forgive me and let me home Baby misses you And he really loves you Please forgive Baby He cries to sleep every night And wakes up crying Please forgive Baby He promised to be good and he is good now Don't desert him He is a good boy and he loves Monster a lot
I love you a lot Please feel it again Don't become a stone You don't have to anymore I promise you This time it's safe Please let me home
How was your day again? I had a slow day today. I had a new private student today, he is from Nanyang Polytechnic and he plays the viola. He doesn't really have full potential but he is motivated and I hope he will learn a lot from me. I went swimming with Nicholas Leow at Jurong Safra after that, we were then chatting about almost everything. From people to friendship, to weather and many more. We had lunch at Jack's place, it was cheap, only $6.50! I am sorry that I have mistreated you, and I am taking up responsibility at each step. I love you more than anyone else in this world. People fight all the time, and when they do, they get nasty, I got nasty. But at the end of the day, I come back, with more understanding and strength. And we forgive each other and open our arms to each other again. I will be waiting for my Monster, my lover, my husband. The one and only. Please forgive me and bring me back to your arms. This time, we will be stronger, and soaring the sky.
I miss you so much.... I went volunteered to play Christmas Carols at a nursing home at Clementi area with a group of musicians from St. Andrew's Cathedral, it was heart warming. I love seeing the folks have fun and laugh. They came to me and smile the short performance, somehow, I feel close to older folks. After that, I went home and I did some practicing and I think I am losing my 'picture for music', I hope its not permanent! I am so sorry that I have emailing you so many times today, I can't help it, I miss you, your voice, you face, you. I am truly sorry for what I have done but I believe its never too late to repent and come home to my love ones. I am repenting now and I hope you see it too. I don't ask for much, just one more chance to show you the beautiful me inside. Please believe in my sincerity, honesty, will, determination and love this time. I am home, please let me in.
How was your day? Mine was rather rough today. I went to get eye screening. When I got there, the nurse asked me to get some solution into my eyes every 3-5mins to get them diluted before the X-ray. The first drop was painful! It burnt my eyes, literally. And I had to go on for a few times. After the test, my eyes felt like it was covered with a layer of blurred solution, everything was blur! I then walked out of the clinic and hurried back in because the sun was hurting my eyes a lot! Probably something got to do with the solution, it takes away your natural fluid in your eyes and made them very exposed to UV rays. I was so scared then, I was nauseous and covering eyes while walking. I was 65% blind and I wished I could talk to you on the phone to make me feel better or thinking of holding your hands. Thinking of you alone made it feel better and I braved the piercing sunlight, took a cab and went to teach. Kendra, my trainer's daughter, she is very annoying today! Everything I got her to do, she refuses. I had a nice conversation with my trainer. We talked about horses, dogs, her children and music. After that, I went home and I called up AFA and I am gonna volunteer for them! I hope I can use the strength I got from you and my best friends and give the people with HIV a home in spirit from me. You all have given me strength, and I will put thisin to good use! In the evening, I brought Junior down while cycling. It was fun, he was running in front of me while I was taking my pace. Went to Pei Ying's place and helped her pack her room and tidy things up. I was glad that I met up with the girls last night, from that, I realise they each have their deepest sorrows that they don't share to others except me. And I am gonna use this 'new' strength of mine to heal them. You are in my heart and I see you.
How was your day? I hope it was fulfilling because mine was! I went to Kranji, it was a crazy journey- I took bus 39 to seletar camp and changed to 168, but I took the wrong 168 and it went back to IKEA! I had to then cross over to the right 168 and take the dreadful journey to Woodlands and from there, I took 961 to the riding centre. The riding centre was nice, it is very clean- they have locker rooms for riders to hang their stuff! From the school, I met 2 girls, Daphne and Morine, they use to learn riding from Gallop Stable, and they told me why they decided to leave for SG Turf Club Riding Centre was because of the management. During the group assessment, I was given a horse named Jonas to ride on, he is one lazy horse according to the trainer. (Reminds me of Rina) It wasn't as bad as I thought, I did trots and that's about it. I was placed into Novice 2, it's okay, I will work hard and get into their National team! After which, I had a chat with Daphne and Morine and Daphne offered to drive me to Little India so it will be easier to go back to Pasir Ris. On the journey, I learnt tat she actually volunteers at the Riding School for the Disabled! So I've asked to volunteer and the chances are high! After she dropped me off, I took a cab back to Pasir Ris and met Yan Min, Melissa, Sheeren, Pei Ying and Grace for dinner and a chat. We helped Mel do her survey, something got to do with her assignment. Then I told all of them about my status, about what happened between us and what I have done wrong and I learning to be stronger and waiting for you to come home, of course. They were all very supportive of it and they will help me, guide me into a stronger and positive person and I will become the person that my heart is meant to be and my mind, my thinking and my moral code will all be in sync! Alright, it's getting late and I need to sleep! Goodnight Monster!
Hope your day was good! I was so tired yesterday that I slept from evening till now! I was happy that I got to talk to Adeline on skype earlier this morning! She is doing great in Arizona now, but she says life is boring there, maybe because there's no ocean! She is desperately learning to speak Mandarin because her boyfriend's parents doesn't speak English! And she was swearing that its karma 'cause she dropped the language since 10! Grace is enjoying herself alone at home, her folks went to Melbourne for a week and she finally gets the rest according to her! I still think its a pity to that she doesn't pursue a career that relates to what she'd learnt. But I guess she's comfortable working in Prudential for now! And for me, I am finally going to Kranji for lessons from today onwards! I am still going back to Gallop Stable, but just to visit Rina and Sexy Girl because I am sure they miss me alot! Nicholas came over to my place yesterday and we had a long chat, he told me a lot of things, guided me a few too. I heard from him that Kenny has learned of my status from you. For that, you have my gratitude, it changed him in that perspective alot. The way he views life and death, or life in death etc. Alright, I am going out for a run now, will talk to you the next day!
It was nice seeing you, talking on the phone, walking around from your room to the other. I have to that it was freezing cold out there! I saw Uen and he saw me but we didn't talk because we were a distant away from each other and I am sure you've already knew about it. I didn't know that Perth has so much mosquitoes at night, they were biting me like crazy! Anyway, all I want to say is that I was praying so hard to get a chance to just see you, and I did! For that, I am happy. I am still learning to become stronger and you will get to see that day! I left because I didn't want to stop you from going out with your friends and get yourself stuck at home. I hope you were at least a little happy about seeing me! Even if it was just a short 10sec, it felt long for me, but definitely not enough. But it's okay! I will wait for you.
The rain is so gloomy these days Fogging the path in front I don't see what is going on I am sad And all I can think of is Leave me alone I wish I will be in a place where nobody will come find me No one that hates me Knows me Or loves me Let me just be alone I hate this place I hate this life I hate myself Maybe one day I will go to a place like that ... One day.
The love I had Was never lesser than anyone I was blessed With the greatest love From my family Friends And him
I am but a cruel shell with a beautiful heart My body will soon be destroyed But my soul will always be with the ones I love dearly That I keep to my heart the closest everyday
I am not afraid to die But I don't want the ones I love dearly To know that I am leaving Because I know this pain will hurt them Worse than piercing swords
If there is one last thing I want to do it right I want them to live happy and remember the good times For they are my angels that protected me for so long All I ask for is their lifetime happiness I want to die making this world happy At least it will be a good thing...
Like the wind We soar through the sky Like the cloud They overwhelm the sun Like the rain She cries an ocean Like the sun He shines again Like the tree The will stands steadily Like the river Memories flow swiftly Like the sky The heart broadens
He is the wind in the aspen trees He is the roar of the rolling sea He is the call of a mighty bird He is the voice of a spoken word His name is like music Can't you hear his song His name is like music And my voice lives on And I sing wherever I go If you will listen,then you'll know His name is like music He is my song He is a hush of a gentle rain He is the tap on a window pane He is the calm of a lullaby He is a sound of a mother's sigh His name is like music Can't you hear his song His name is like music And my voice lives on I will sing wherever I go If you will listen,then you'll know His name is my strength ...You are my song
When the chains of chains starts to move Each layer gets thicker The blade spins and spins Revolving around what they call "cycle" When sand sinks like a ticking clock Layers seem to peel And one might just disappear
Through my eyes I felt the lights dimmed Through my ears I see the voices masked behind walls Through my skin I hear the temperature whisky away As though time fell into a dark hole Just as the star overwhelmed by the overcrowding darkness Just as my heart swallowed itself
Like a major chord descending its steps to the minor Like a flight of stairs when you missed one Like a humanoid so perfect but without a soul
I am sorry I masked the voices behind walls I am sorry I have overwhelmed the stars with darkness I am sorry I have made you missed a step from the stairs
Though you have already forgiven It is still in me to say this to you
I left the keys in the car I left the door ajar I didn't want to be alone
These are the days and the nights of these sweet humbling heights and I know it used to be home
Whisk me away i'll be yours for a day in heavenly fields which we roam
A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're too clean white love What are you doing? What you doing, what ya doing to me? What are you doing to my head?
A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're too clean white love. I give my heart on the evening of June 25th Oh, everybody's looking for a fix
Hey...
Sell me a sign I'll cut the telephone line Just to keep the quotations alive
Oh you're bleeding me dry but the feeling is blind and I know you're looking divine.
Sell me it straight Oh, it might be too late Keep on breaking the rules
Oh... A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're my clean white love What are you doing? What you doing, what ya doing to me? What are you doing to my head?
A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're too clean white love. I give my heart on the evening of June 25th Oh, everybody's looking for a fix
Oh.... Oh a oh....
And this love is diseased there's a cure I need that medicine to get to the core
Remember this place It's left to the fates but it's kind to be cruel
Oh... A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're my clean white love What are you doing? What you doing, what ya doing to me? What are you doing to my head?
A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're too clean white love. What are you doing? What you doing, what ya doing to me? What are you doing to my head?
A woah ah oh you're my clean white love A woah ah oh you're too clean white love. What are you doing? What you doing, what ya doing to me? What are you doing to my head?
In my heart on the evening of June 25th Oh, everybody's looking for a fix
I've heard it said That people come into our lives for a reason Bringing something we must learn And we are led To those who help us most to grow If we let them And we help them in return Well, I don't know if I believe that's true But I know I'm who I am today Because I knew you...
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good
It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime So let me say before we part So much of me Is made of what I learned from you You'll be with me Like a handprint on my heart And now whatever way our stories end I know you have re-written mine By being my friend...
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a skybird In a distant wood Who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you
Because I knew you
I have been changed for good
And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I've done you blame me for
But then, I guess we know There's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter anymore
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood
Who can say if I've been Changed for the better? I do believe I have been Changed for the better
And because I knew you...
Because I knew you...
Because I knew you... I have been changed for good...
My last night here for you Same old songs, just once more My last night here with you Maybe yes, maybe no I kind of liked it your way How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know? That I had mine on you
Darling, so there you are With that look on your face As if you're never hurt As if you're never down Shall I be the one for you Who pinches you softly but sure If frown is shown then I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you Close as I want to be Close enough for me To feel your heart beating fast And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me did you ever know That I had mine on you
Darling, so share with me Your love if you have enough Your tears if your're holding back Or pain if that's what it is How can I let you know I'm more than the looks and the voice Just reach me out then You will know that you're not dreaming
Darling, so there you are With that look on your face As if you're never hurt As if you're never down Shall I be the one for you Who pinches you softly but sure If frown is shown then I will know that you are no dreamer.
Don't think you're going to see it But just needed to voice out I am missing you like crazy I am zoning out every other time thinking about you I am possessed by the memories we had together Every single minute kills The insanity overwhelming Sanity taking control My mind's clogged up Just like an addict undergoing cold turkey That is how bad it is
I see you Walking through a dream I see you My light in darkness breathing hope of new life Now I live through you and you through me Enchanting I pray in my heart that this dream never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your life shines the way into paradise So I offer my life as a sacrifice I live through your love You teach me how to see All that’s beautiful My senses touch your word I never pictured Now I give my hope to you I surrender I pray in my heart that this world never ends I see me through your eyes Living through life flying high Your love shines the way into paradise So I offer my life I offer my love, for you When my heart was never open And my spirit never free To the world that you have shown me But my eyes could not division All the colours of love and of life Evermore
It is with utmost regret that I have had to resort to such a measure to bring to light the unprofessional conduct of one of your doctors, Christopher Chong (Room 14, Pasir Ris Polyclinic).
I have tolerated his uncouth behaviour everytime I was attended to by him but I have no choice but to send this letter of complaint after the last visit.
I have had to endure excruciating pain in my left heel region to make the trip down to the polyclinic for medication as well as medical leave. However, when I was attended to by Dr Chong, I was made to seem like a fraud and was incredibly appalled at his dismissive attitude towards my injury. The moment I mentioned by complaint of pain in my left heel, he dismissed it, saying, "You wouldn't have made it to the clinic if it was THAT painful."
This encounter with his bitchy and dismissive attitude was certainly not an isolated incident as previous encounters with him were largely similar.
I refrained from retorting as I was already in so much pain and had no energy to deal with such nonsense.
If I had my way, I would have mentioned the very glaring flaw he had which made me doubt his professionalism in his job as a doctor. It would not have taken a genius to figure out that he wasn't exactly adhering to HPB's guidelines for healthy BMI.
I hope that your good company would put more effort into screening the types of doctors you place in your polyclinics as they are, after all, the first echelon of the medical institutional hierarchy. Having such uncouth and unservice-oriented staff would taint your otherwise good reputation as a healthcare provider.
I look forward to your favourable response.
Warmest regards, Raymond Wong.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
"When will you be home?" she asks As we watch the planes take off We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled As a child, she was my world And now to let me go, I know she bleeds And yet she says to me
You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away
Autumn leaves fell into spring time and SIlver-painted hair Daddy called one evening saying "We need you. Please come back" When I saw her laying in her bed Fragile as a child Pale just like an angel taking flight I held her as I cried
You can fly so high Keep your gaze upon the sky I'll be prayin every step along the way Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away I love you too much to make you stay Baby fly away
Water Always so weak So fragile Shows no masculinity It sews through obstacles Manipulating itself against danger Puts off fire Creates a storm that can kill everything
Such beautiful element So elegant Yet so deadly So heartless
I am struggling But no one knows People think I am always joyous But I am not I hate being happy when I am not I hate cheering people up Being there for them Letting them know I am there for them When I am sad and unstable myself No one knows how I feel I chose to be happy for the obvious Doesn't mean I am happy
When, I saw you for the first time I knew you were the one. You didn't say a word to me. But love, was in the air.
Then you held my hand Pulled me into your world From then on my life Has changed for me
Now I'll never feel lonely again Cause you are in my life...
Love... How can I explain to you The way I feel inside when I think of you.. I thank you for everything that you showed me. Don't you ever forget that I love you.
Love, I know that someday real soon You'll be right next to me. Holding me so tight. So I will always be yours. Although we can't be together now. Remember I am here for you.
And I know you're there for me. Whenever I long to be with you I just close my eyes and pretend you're here I see you, I touch you, I feel you, like real
Nothing can ever change what I feel inside.
How long must I be far away from you? I don't know dear, but I know we are One...
The haze beyond your eyes cloud my sight Are there feelings lying at the bottom of your heart?
Even if the whole world was yours Would that bring you happiness?
Why do you look up at the lonesome sky? Why, let's see you smile I know what you're like How you aren't good at putting things into words, so why not...
What happened in days long past? In your eyes, as turn you gaze away from me
Do you know of such warmth One that can embrace you on those lonely nights by yourself
Why are you so worked up on appearances Why, open up your heart I know you've had a heavy cross to bear But I've got the strength to accept you So why not try believing in me
The free are awkward... The free are anxious...
Why do you look up at the lonesome sky Why, let's see you smile I know what you're like How you aren't good at putting thing into words So why not try believing in me
I am so tired So, so tired It feels like one Standing on An ocean of razor ice Forcing me to walk But nowhere am I headed to So cold So alone It felt llke Me drying up.
